life is weighing down on me, killing me inside
something i could never be will guide me to the new
light
frustrated
sedated
i pray to myself

god please
don´t take away from me

the only fucking thing
that i learned to believe
i am becoming the monster
you promised to keep him away
now i feel like he´s living in me!!!

anyway, i could never ever be
what you think is right for me
are things that i will not believe
i want to start a new life
get myself a sharp knife
look into my own life
kill things i don´t like in me

but sometimes i feel ok
and think i´m unique
you always try to critique
i turn my back on it anyway
sucker! punk-ass motherfucker!
i am loco!
te falta un poco!
to get your ass in a choke-hold!

just kill me - i can´t breathe
i am guiding myself right to the end
i can´t learn - come to terms
with the sickness that makes me crash and burn

i´m crying, i feel like i am dying but i´m trying
i beg to myself put my pride up on the shelf
life is not forever
but if life will stay together
i would have a friend in my depression, have an end

but i´ve been thinking
and thinking always gets me into trouble
but since i have a double personality
i wasn´t me you see
now i´m a refugee
and everything inside of me is just a part of my
disease!!!

just kill me - i can´t breathe
i am guiding myself right to the end
i can´t learn - come to terms
with the sickness that makes me crash and burn