i´m sittin´ at a coffee table, unable to see straight
watchin´ parallel lines unwind and undulate
behind the rain-streaked windowpane, the scene´s bleak
another train leavin´ home,
conceding defeat with a low moan
hangin´ in a sky, made of stone
everybody´s leavin´ home, i called my man jerome
to come meet me in the twilight zone
leave your mobile phone at home and come alone
i bought him coffee and a snack,
settled back, started speakin´
he was tweakin´ with the peak of his cap
while i´m seekin´ to discover what it takes to stay sober
not cover my mistakes,
try to maybe make sense of the evidence
it´s over, she´s gone for good
why should i lie, singin´ a killer´s lullaby
identified by the dying ring of her goodbye
the last thing you hear before your life disappear

now it just gets worse, like my stomach ´ll burst,
feel like i´ve been cursed.
with seven centuries of bitter memories
and inadequacies, previous he´s and she´s
i´m movin´ round this old house for the last time
scene of my past crimes, been here for lifetimes
hearin´ the chimes of the old clock that used to mock
you got eternity for takin´ stock,
this place is like a padlock
you look shocked.
trust me, nothing ever moves but the dust,
there´s just us and i´m here to torment and tease
and that´s how it was for centuries
me and my memories, till you brought the keys
took the couple of saturdays
i moved in runnin´ from tragedies and boozing
seven hundred years since i came here
you appear, same hair, same quizzical stare
i couldn´t get near,
and the sheer frustration was more than i could bear
i was really cursed, thought i´d been through the worst part
that was just the first part, just the start
every night i´d be sitting with dread, breaking my heart
in case the man she´d been chasin´ gets to first base
and i just can´t escape, i´m in bad shape
you making love to someone else is more than i can take
and so i make all the movement i can to no avail
scream and yell, sinkin´ deeper into my personal hell

i´m getting heated, i´m sorry, have another coffee
i needed to release my sparrow chest from just a piece of this pressure
unless an escape route is found,
i´m going down underground
into lifetimes of pain, it´s absurd
the heaviest chain is contained is the sound of one word
so i´m referred back to hell, huh
just as well, i hate needles an´ get twinges at the thought
of syringes

j (as in jerome), i´m going insane with shame
i dream and watch her makin´ love over and over again
with what i call a farmer´s swain
unintelligent, pea-brained retard who´s dick is always hard
oh god, of course i´m jealous, fellows,
oversexed flexing his pec´s
jesus, what´s he going make her do next?
i´m mad vex, the way she gently scratches his chest
you used to do that to me back in 1253
pity me, while you lie with your lover
i stare and suffer in despair while you ruffle his hair
unaware of who else is there
i move quick, i want to try my trick one last time
you know it´s possible to vaguely define my outline
when dust move in the sunshine
so i´m tryin´ to change, vibrate myself to near-human pitch
which reminds me how i used to come unstitched
and switch ´round the house in a blind rage
it took years and an ocean of tears to find the key to this
cage
and write another stage into a new age,
it´s difficult to gauge
but i know that i´ll see you again, on that you may depend
i just don´t know how or when
sleep on, my lost love on gone

jerome took me home under steel skies
knowing i´m prone to dramatize but unknown for telling lies
and what i verbalize he can see behind my eyes
the why oh why´s that identify killer lullabies
and he surmised
no surprise couldn´t hear that
closed my eyes as he steered that old black bm home again
not knowing how and not knowing when.