uh, i feel that this has given me the msot incredible and woonderful thing
that i have ever been given, and also, the worst. it´s a mixed bag. uh, i
have been taken to the, absolutely, to the depths of extreme terror by this.
i´ve had my whole soul undermined by it, on the one hand. on the other hand,
uh, in one sense, my experience has been about finding
joy...joy...joy....joy....joy...joy....joy....joy...joy...