positive þarký sözü

make me, make me sweat
til i´m wet, til i´m dry
but then wipe this tear from my eye
haven´t felt this warm in a long time
even out in the bright sunshine
in lifetime of springtimes

i fall into your arms
with my heart pumpin´ on
like a bubblin´ dub track
like a garlicy hot tonque and lip smack

i did some contemplation
before we got down to this consecration
maybe baby something in you kiss said
it was an impetous
for me to rethink this

if i love you
then i better get tested
make sure we´re protected

i walk through the park
dressed like a question mark
hark!
i hear my memory bark
in the back of my brain,
makn´ me insane...
...like cocaine
(chorus)
but how´m i gonna live my life if i´m positive?
is it gonna be a negative?
how´m i gonna live my life if i´m positive?
is it gonna be a negative?
but how´m i gonna live my life if i´m positive?

it dawned on me, it seemed to me
this is unusual scenery
this red light greenery
make me feel kinda dreamery
thinkin´ how i used to be

arrive at the clinic
walk through the front door
take a nervous number
then i think about it more
about all the time
that i neglected
makin sure that
i was protected

they took my blood
with an anonymous number
two weeks waitin´ wonderin´

i shoulda done this a long time ago
alot of excuses why i couldn´t go
i know these things and these things i must know
´cause it´s better to know than to not know!

(chorus)

i go home to kick it
in my apartment
i try to give myself
a risk assessment
the wait is what can really annoy ya
everyday is more paranoya

i´m readin´ about how it´s transmitted
some behavior i must admit it
who i slept with, who they slept with,
who they, who they, who they slept with

i think about life and immortality
what´s the first thing i do if i´m h.i.v
have a cry and tell my mother
get on the phone and call my past lovers
i never thought about infectin´ anotha
all the times that i said "hmmm? don´t bother."

was it really all that magic?
the times i didn´t use a prophalactic

would my whole life have to change?
or would my whole life remain the same?
sometimes it makes me wanna shout!
all these things too hard to think about
a day to laugh, a day to cry
a day to live and a day to die
´til i find out, i may wonder
but i´m not gonna live my life six feet under

(chorus)